It's funny what you think of during times like these. Today I couldn't think of anything except that I had to get to the store and buy some luggage so that we would be ready if something should happen. I bought it and now I'm thinking I need to get to the store to get some dress clothes for the girls, make sure prescriptions are filled, find someone to watch the dog....I was feeling guilty that I wasn't more emotional or crying....but I know that I need to do these things while I can, before I'm too upset to think straight. I suppose everyone deals with grief in different ways. I need to sit down and talk with the girls too. I'm so proud of them as well. They are so loving toward my dad. Wee one sat on the bed with him and just held his hand the last time we were there.
We are going over when John gets home from work. I remember when my best friend was dying, and she started getting a lot of visitors. She said to me, "Gee, I must be getting worse!" It's true though. As soon as people find out someone is sick, they come visit regularly. Then they seem to taper off but start back up when they get the news that things aren't looking so good. I guess it's just the nature of human beings. No matter what kind of pain you are in, or who you are losing in your life....it goes on. Delieveries continue to be made, stores continue to open, restaurants continue to serve. Nothing stops....it just keeps going, and drags you along even when you don't feel like participating.
Anyhoo....I must be going. I have a pile of laundry that is a mile high that I should be working on, and it's almost time to pick up wee one from the bus stop.
BTW, I'm rather behind on my commenting....I'll catch up soon!
30 comments:
I am so sorry..god be with you and your family at this time.
A very touching entry. Your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. You probably don't know me but I read your journal regularly and enjoy it a lot. I hope your Dad goes peacefully. I am glad your Pastor friend and his wife was there recently. Sounds like you are doing exactly what you need to do. Take care.
Wendy
Sorry to hear that things aren't well with your dad. My prayers go out to you and your mom and all the family. It's never easy. Big hugs, Lanny
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My prayers are with you and your family. I watched my dad die and it wasn't easy. Even though we knew he was dying, it was still a shock when he did. Partly because the end came so much sooner than we expected. He was diagnosed and 28 days later he died.
I know this is a difficult time and I'm so sorry for the pending loss of your dad.
I am speechless, you entry brought tears to my eyes. Sherry, just breathe in and out every day, and treasure each and every moment. I will be praying you through! Please let me know if there is anything I can do?????
Here in Indiana, it snowed today... it's blustery cold. So much for the first day of March... but then again, it always snows at basketball sectional time in the Hoosier state.
~Erin
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Sherry I am so sorry about what is happening. I know how hard it is, I am going through the same thing with my step-mom. If you need to talk please feel free to e-mail me, or IM me. I also went through the same thing with my dad. I send many (((hugs))) to you and your family.
(((hugs)))
Leigh
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My prayers are with your and your family .
Oh Im so sorry for your family and your dad. I will keep you in thoughts and praayers. I really hope you can keep it all to gether for your mom. I know your not breaking down yet since you have to do so much> I htink that is what will keep you togehter for a while. I m really sorry its looking like down hill for him. I sure do pray peace and comfort during htis time for your family. Lori
Awww sweety, I can't imagine how you are feeling right now, but I do know that I would be thinking about the same things as you are. It's just our natures to get everything into "order" for that "just in case". Just know that I will be here if you need me and you and your entire family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Much love and many hugs to you,
Lisa
My prayers are with you and your family during this very difficult time. If you need anything please let me know. I know how difficult this is. Your Mom is a wonderful strong woman, and so are you. God be with you all.
*hugs*
I'm sending thoughts & prayers your way... Try to remember his last day on earth, is his first day in heaven... Both of my parents are gone... I was holding my Mom's hand when she went died in hospice...
Hugs with love, Kendra
I lost my dad almost 5 years ago to cancer. I live 2 1/2 hours away and it was so hard, going back and forth, never knowing if you would see him again when you left. I remember feeling exactly as you are right now....getting dress clothes for the kids, making sure the suitcases were close by. And I remember thinking "I can't do this anymore, I just need for this to be OVER" but then realizing what "OVER" actually meant and feeling terrible for actually wishing that. That was one of the worst times of my entire life and I will never forget it. I was with my dad when he died and I wouldn't trade that for anything in the world.
My thought and prayers are really, really with you during this time. That sounds so trivial at such an important time, but I mean it from my heart.
Jeanne
I am sorry about your dad. Your way of coping (organizing, etc.) is perfectly normal, imo. Hang in there, it is quite a journey.
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Your dad and family will continue to be in my prayers.
Many hugs
Heather
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Yea laundry it sucks sorry to hear your father is sick and not doing well Sometime we cry sometimes we don;t its hard emtion to feel when you do get time and things are slient you will,,, I hate crying.. puffy eyes.. keep us posted
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I am glad that your mother is able to be strong at this time. I'm so glad that you are a close family and that you are able to be together, comfort one another, and draw strength from each other.
Micheyle
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Sherry, after the last post left me speechless, I figured I better comment on this one. Indeed, your Mom is so strong. Just reading her journal one can tell she is amazing. The love, strength and sense of humor she has been able to maintain are such a gift, and resolution. God Bless her and your Dad. I am so glad that you got the terrific visit from your former Pastor. That probably really helped your Dad as well. I am sorry to hear about his decline, but as a family, you have been so realistic and knowing, and also comforting to your fathers' own grief. You are doing the right thngs taking care of the 'business end.' You will be glad all that is taken care of when the time comes to need it. I am sorry about your best friend, too. Best to ya, I will be thinking about you and you are in my prayers. . . Cya, Kris
All of you are in my prayers. This is the hardest thing anyone has to go through, I went through it 9 years ago with my dad. Yes people handle grief differently and go through all sorts of emotions along the way. Hang in there and take care!
Hugs,
Gretchen
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Sherry,just know that you and your family are in my prayers.Hugs to you.KIM
Your family is in my thoughts and prayers. The vacuum fascination I cannot relate to! but your dad's situation I can, as my stepmother has vary advanced lung cancer. May God go with all of you every step of the way.
Sherry,
I am so sorry to hear things are nearing the end with your dad. I will keep you and your entire family in my prayers as you go through this oh so difficult time..
Hugz.
Brenda
Oh Sherry, I'm so sorry. Wee-one is a sweet young lady. What a great thing to have that time with him, to just sit and know the love is there. I'm sure you're very proud of her. ~Melissa
I'm sorry to hear your dad is declining. Your right keeping busy does help to distract you. It's good that you are spending so much time with him. You're storing up memories. Thinking of you.
You are such a strong women. God with get you through this sad time. Know that all of us in journal land are praying for your family and you.
I'll keep your Dad in my prayers. I agree that your Mom is something special.
You did not say what your dad was sick from. I have been trying to contact a few people in the journal and tell them about Dr. Johanna Budwig's Cancer Answer.
She was a 7 time nobel peace prize nominee and her cancer cure has restored
100's of 1,000's of cancer victims back to health after standard treatments failed.
In case you know anyone friends or relatives please feel free to pass this on.
I am including a couple of websites from the over 500 sites on her works so you can read about many of the people who were so near death that enemas were gven because they were too far gone to eat. The sites are:
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or http://hometown.aol.com/donwest70/myhomepage/index.html
My heart goes out to you. I know what a difficult time this for you. You and you family are in my prayers.
God Bless.
Tias
Hugs
you, your family and especially your mum and dad are in my prayers. {{{{Sherry}}}}}}, take care love............Jules xxxxxxx
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