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Well, dd has a sprained ankle and will be getting an x-ray tomorrow to make sure it isn't a chip fracture. DFH is "suggesting" she not play on the team anymore. He is afraid that she will get an arm or nose broken next time. AOhell is not working properly this morning, it keeps freezing. It is FREEZING outside today. Yesterday it was 77, right now it is 40. I am behind on my sewing and need to do my taxes. My new web cam is a piece of crap and won't work. Dfh is unsatisfied with his job and is taking it out at home by being unsociable and generally mean. My diet isn't working. I grocery shopped yesterday and spent more than I wanted to. I have no direction in life and feel the need to do something, but don't know what. I went to bed angry last night. My Mom is stressed and sad and my Dad is dying and there is nothing I can do about it. I didn't write anything that is funny or happy. Yet, there is this little window in my soul where sunshine is pouring through. The nagging voice in my head is not saying bad things, but good things. I feel a tiny thread of hope and love and goodness. It's calling for me to reach out and hang on....I can only assume it's the hand of God. He is calling to me, saying, "Give it to me, let me handle it....it's what I do."  And I so want to do it, to see life as good and wonderful and a gift. I think I do, I just get overwhelmed at times. This is one of them. I do believe I will grab that hand....