Well, decisions have been made and feelings have been hurt. I declined the invitation to fly and spent the morning crying my eyes out. Dh was mad for a long while, being inconsiderate and selfish. But then, I went into work to see him, and he took me out to lunch. He finally "got" it....I wasn't saying I didn't want to spend a weekend with him. I wasn't saying I didn't feel safe flying even with him next to me. It's something that is beyond my control. It's a phobia that I know someday I will have to overcome. But for now, I can't do it. And I don't want to ruin a trip with him because I'm worried about the return flight the entire weekend. So, he is going alone, and coming home a day early, since his boss (my uncle and his wife) are staying the extra day to sight-see. I feel like an idiot to a point, but it is who I am, and if he loves me (which I know he does) he will love me....warts and all.
Sooooo, now I am in the middle of making dinner. The pineapple casserol is in the oven and the pork chops are breaded and waiting. Too bad I'm not hungry! LOL....
I'm so proud of myself....I went to the grocery store and they have two baskets overflowing with Russel Stover and Whitman candy hearts that were left over from Valentine's day. They were the big 1 lb. boxes, 2 for $8.99. I stopped, picked them up, thought about it, and walked away. Go ME! Of course, I then went into the wine aisle and bought myself a little treat to relax with this evening. So, if my next entry is slurred and indistinguishable....you will know what happened.
Ooooh....the timer is dinging....time to check the goodies!
13 comments:
Don't beat yourself up too bad. When the time is right you will fly. Dinner sound good and I'd like to know more about that cassarol. You know me, I'll try anything once hehehe Hugs Lanny
I think if they sold alcohol in our grocery stores I would be an alcoholic. I know how you feel about flying, although I have never been put in a predicament that forced me to fly, I just choose not to do it. Every year we drive to FLA. when it comes time to make a trip across country we will take 3 weeks so that we can drive. Hub would like to go to Hawaii hopefully I will grow up by then, but I don't think so. Maybe if I'm old enough I can take a different point of view. If I'm real old I can look at it like I'm gonna die anyway. I don't know why I don't take that attitude now, because no matter what age I am I'm still gonna die anyway, eventually.
I really hate it when something gets sprung on me and I haven't had a chance to settle it in my mind. Maybe if you had a little while to digest going things would have gone differently. I am getting that you don't have just a little fear, but that you are really, really afraid--and I think that your husband should respect that and I'm glad that he does. I'll tell you how nutty I am--when I first started dating my husband, he got his pilot's license and I went up in an airplane with him one afternoon. The entire flight I was sick to my stomach thinking I would die and my poor family would be left grieving for me forever. I prayed the entire flight for my safe return to earth...(which obviously happened since I'm sitting here typing at this moment)
I'm glad things worked out and you didn't have to go. Mmmmm, dinner sounds good! :o) ~Kim
As long as you feel you made the right decision then don't worry about what other people think.And I'm w/ Lanny, I would like to know more about this pineapple casserol. KIM
Oh cool! I warned of slurred comments in my entry tonight too! LOL! Glad you're not subjecting yourself to the flight if it really bothers you that much and I'm glad you have such an understanding hubby. Cheers! :-)
Oh cool! I warned of slurred comments in my entry tonight too! LOL! Glad you're not subjecting yourself to the flight if it really bothers you that much and I'm glad you have such an understanding hubby. Cheers! :-)
PS Good job passing up the candy! Oh and sorry about the double entry previously, I got the "journals not available" message and after I went back and did it again I saw that it had posted twice. Feel free to delete :-)
Nothing to be sad about Sherry, you just understood your own fears and accepted them. There is absolutely nothing wrong with that and I commend you for doing so! I am not saying everyone should give into their fears and never experience things, but this is a phobia, a fear of flying, and until YOU are ready to get "over it", you will not. It's only for a few days though, so no BIGGIE right? Glad you passed on the chocolates. The wine sounds better anyway!
Hugs and love, Lisa
Good for you to follow your instincts! And you probably would have had a bad time yourself because you would just have your mind set on this airplane and the "what ifs" would be flashing through your head. Good for you! Dinner sounds great! Hope your hubb has a safe flight! -Rae Ann
The decision is made, everyone will be fine. WHEN you feel ready you might decided to face the fears. We all have our fears to overcome. I know I said I LOVE to fly and I do, but, I tell you I still do HEAVY duty praying before and during my flights! Keep your head up, we all love ya!
Smilin Mon
hugs..I know what a hard thing that must have been for you. One thing we can't help is our fears. I do hope one day you can give flying a try...for me its a thing I have to do to get really cool places but def don't enjoy it...
Good job on resisting the candy...will you be able to at 75% off ??lol
I'm glad you have the travel situation handled. That would have eaten at you until it was resolved (or over). I'm glad you were able to make him understand where you were coming from. Your fears are valid.
Way to go....who wants "old" valentine candy anyway!
:)
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